Cleaning out my closet
September 26, 2009 at 10:03 am (Fight the Good Fight)
I’ve always struggled with my weight. The problem started when I paid my doctor a visit in my mid teens for a regular check-up. He decided that I should follow a strict 1000 calorie-a-day diet. The sad part is that I don’t remember asking him for any help; I was there for a regular check-up. I didn’t perceive myself as being overweight, or at least not enough to warrant a doctor’s visit, and now that I look back, I know I was fine.
When I got off of this ridiculous starvation diet a couple of months later, of course I put all the weight back on and then some. That was the beginning of my yo-yo dieting. Try something, fail, put the weight back on and more. Cleaning out my closet was a tough job. It was hard getting rid of clothes that didn’t fit me anymore.
This went on until I hit my early 30s when I decided NO MORE. No more diets. No more closet cleaning. This is who I am, I will never be pencil thin, and that’s okay. When I finally accepted this, there was such a sense of relief. It’s not that I was all mopey or anything about my weight, but it had always been in the back of my mind.
Seeing my 40th birthday creeping up on me, I wanted to do something to improve my health, and that’s when I decided to set a goal for myself to lose 30lbs. Well, the big day came and went and I’m happy to say that I did reach my goal. I joined Weight Watchers, started cross-country skiing last winter, and generally increased my physical activity level.
Once I got back from my trip this summer, I was very excited to learn that I didn’t put the weight back on. I’m very happy where I am, but at the same time, I figure if I lost 30lbs, I could probably keep going. So, I’m setting a new goal before the new decade hits us: another 20lbs.
I’ve never had so much fun cleaning out my closet.
Kara said,
September 26, 2009 at 2:47 pm
Well I have to say you looked amazing when we saw you last. I think you have such great taste in clothing and accessories. Congrats on getting that 30lbs off to feel healthier. I understand about the doctors messing with your head when young. One of these times when we hit Whitehorse I will ditch my hubby and kids and you and I should have a supper out to bullshit!
Carole said,
September 26, 2009 at 8:00 pm
Hey Kara,
Thanks for the compliments, and yes, let’s get together just the girls. Sounds like way too much fun.
Baino said,
October 3, 2009 at 1:26 am
Admirable goal Carole and after seeing you on that wall you look terrific! I always thought I was the world’s ‘best’ dieter and like you lost a whopping 30 kilos (not pounds) on a meal replacement diet but slowly put the whole lot back on. Weight Watchers is great . . I just need to get off my lard arse and register!
Carole said,
October 4, 2009 at 10:42 am
Woah!!! 66lbs? That’s incredible! Well, I have to admit that these last couple of weeks have been difficult. So I, too, have to get moving and start back on this whole thing again. I have to get it into my head that it’s just a matter of accounting for everything I eat. The nice thing about WW is that everything is allowed in the sense that there is no “no-no” list. It’s all in the choices you make and the portions. It’s probably the reason why I didn’t put the weight back on this summer; I kind of had things figured out. But I do have to get organized again, otherwise I won’t be able to say the same come Christmas.